That's right. $800 bucks down the tubes for nada. I guess if there is a positive side to this it would be that I saved the $8 pregnancy test. Got good 'ol Aunt Flo this AM. . . . but wait, . . .did I save the eight dollars or . . . ?
I am just recovering from a trip to the ER I had on Wednesday night. I felt like death. Sick as hell and ended up tied to every machine, IV's, EKG, CT scan, ultrasounds, and needed a-- Yes, you guessed it--a blood and urine pregnancy test. Given by doctors. People that go to school for higher tech shit than this. Yet, I still hoped they were wrong when they told me I was "Not pregnant". That's a phrase I'm beginning to resent.
Yet, I was hoping it was a bit early since that would've only been day 23 or 22 of my cycle, buuuuuut I'm pretty sure the blood test slammed the nail in that coffin.
Before I left, at 2 am, the trauma doctor asked me about my infertility treatments. Since they couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, I think he was wondering if my pricey pills/ shot from this month may have impacted my health. Perhaps they have? But I'll tell you what-- they haven't done crap for my fertility issues.
Despite what medical help we used this month, it was really our "last chance" to make a baby the "good old fashioned way". Kinda makes me sad to know that the "magical event" most couples (and irresponsible kids) get to experience, where a baby is made simply by taking a vacation, enjoying their wedding night, or even by getting drunk on a Friday night with their spouse, will never happen for us. If you're one of those people who got to make your baby the "old fashioned way", (and FREE), be f'n thankful.
Ho hum. . . . (Inner pity voice says, "Feel bad for yourself!!! It's NOT FAIR!!! What did you screw up, stupid woman!?!?") . . . REALITY says, "GET OVER IT, BITCH! This is your life. You can sit and mope, or get out your checkbook and hope to God that the next step works!" . . . Today, I choose, Reality.
I think, this cycle, we will be meeting with my OBGYN, (ONE MORE TIME) since I can't get in with the new RE until the 11th of May. Crappy, but due to this last cycle being so short, that's the way it is.
The plan of attack seemed to be:
1. Clomid 50 mg (Days 5-9)
2. Follicle ultrasound before Ovulation
3. HcG shot again.
4. DH shoots into random lucky dixie cup
5. Swimmers are spun around at high speeds as if they are at space camp (removes excess fluids)
6. Swimmers shot directly into my uterus (by passing the tricky cervix) via IUI.
See what I mean by the "good old fashioned way" going OUT the window?
I will keep you up to date on the happenings as soon as I know them. I'd assume, they'll send for a refill of my clomid and HcG. Then, I'll most likely meet with them the day of the follie ultrasound. They better not be 30 minutes late this time. . . I'm beginning to collect a lot of hypodermic needles. . . . Seriously. :)
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