I wanna pee on this damn stick tomorrow. But after looking back at my results from July, I'm afraid that my line will not show up on 12dpET or be so light that it's disappointing.
I'm afraid of a tiny beta--which would make me think one or both embies might be in my tubes again. The ectopic has made me "gun shy" about this whole process. I can't just be happy now when I get pregnant--Not at least until 7 weeks when I can see the ultrasound and know my tubes haven't exploded from the kiddos.
So I want to know--am I pregnant???
These PIO (Progesterone In Oil) shoots are a pain in my ass. A few days ago, DH was giving me my shot in the right side of my booty. When we pulled the giant needle out--blood squirted out like a pouting fountain--all over the white rug. Crazy, right?
I am hoping that I will have good (BFP) news very soon--so that I feel there is reason for doing all these shots and wearing these stupid estrogen patches that I hate. The patches come off all the time. They annoy me every time I move. Today they are lined up, three strong, on my lower back. Before that, I had my lower tummy tagged. Good thing it's not bikini season anymore! But man, everyday at 8:30pm our life has to STOP!
So do I POAS before BETA or not?
I'm not sure-- I'll have to decide tomorrow morning before I pee at the crack of dawn. But I've gotta be honest--I probably won't give the results if I do. I'd need to keep the "unsure-ness" of an "at-home-preggo-test" between DH and I until Monday afternoon. Then, when BETA arrives-- I'll let you in!
PRAY FOR US PEOPLE!!!! (All four of us! :D)
I am praying for you! I have been reading your blog for about 2 weeks and even started my own as well as signed up for the bump this morning (because I read of you going over to the website). I geniunely hope you are are peggo! Please keep us informed, I love reading your blog..you are an inspiration to me (who by the way is just now going through my first IVF cycle and I'm a little panicked!)
ReplyDeleteAwww! Thanks so much for your love and support!!
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best of luck with your IVF cycle! I really feel it is a wonderful thing. Yes, you get hormonal and lupron brings on the headaches-- but if it also brings us a baby-- WORTH IT!
I've gotta say, the easiest parts were the ER and ET. Painless. IUI's were much more painful.
Afterwards PIO and estrogen patches are the biggest pain in the butt (no pun intended). But at that point, it's almost time for BETA--and when it's positive, BRING ON WHATEVER! :)
Much love to you and your SO (Significant other)!!!
We are praying strong over here!
ReplyDeleteYou may think I am a corndog, but there were 4 stars out last night when we arrived home. That gave me ample stars to wish upon for you, yours and your 2 embies!!!